DAY5 favorite memory

A picture of a favorite memory is a hard thing to come by. I think if you have a picture from your favorite memory your one lucky person! unfortunately im not that lucky...but one thing i do have is a pretty good memory of it, so whenever i want i can just think back to this day and remember exactly how i felt.

The first date with Jarbon. i know what your thinking GAG! but actually i wasnt his date the first time we went on a date together. I was with his friend and he was with a girl that he was dating at that time. We sat across from each other at dinner and we hadnt really talked a whole lot before. I was wearing a necklace with an M on it- the first thing out of his mouth- " what does the m stand for..?" I knew he knew what my name was! feeling very out of place on a group date with people i barely knew i didnt dare make the sly comeback i would have normally made, so instead i just laughed like a foolish little girl... ( it was one of those times where after you said what you did you think of 50 funny/clever things you should have said, shame on me, i know!)The rest of the date went as follows- I loathed the person sitting across from me. We ate we left to get our things to go sledding. needless to say i did not want to hang out with these people,mainly just one person, If you know Jed then you know he likes to talk, a lot. about anything, really. So as hard as i tried to ignore him the whole night and not look at him, i couldnt. there was something more than just different about him.  i realized, despite his teasing the new girl stunt, he was actually really pretty perfect. sure i didnt know his birthday or his favorite color, but i felt like i knew him on another level almost. now were getting creepy right? imagine if you were me how weird you would feel. there was just something off something strange about the whole thing..

It took two years,  many heart breaks and trials later to go on an actual first date together. we havent been apart since. I wonder everyday why it had to take so long for us to be together, so many heartbreaks could have been prevented so many trials untouched. but i guess thats just when we have to let our faith in a higher power take over our what ifs. 

Sorry, this is just a lot of rambling. this is a BIG month for me and i cant really think of much else- so this was sort of a way to put my scrambled thoughts somewhere else... thanks.